“Can someone please walk by and accidentally spill glitter all over my desk? I promise I won’t get angry.”
—VTay
November 2011
22 posts
Reflections
…
.
.
there’s no way of putting it into complete sentences.
sometimes it just comes out the way it wants to.
sometimes it doesn’t make any sense.
but since when did such things really make sense.
like when my mind drifts.
and I start thinking about all sorts of things.
past.
present.
future.
to evaluate, to reflect, to dream, to aspire, to plan, to execute.
why do I feel like I’m running out of time?
am I, really?
I really need a breakthrough.
I need to soar.
I know I can soar.
but where? how?
and when?
I’m doing something about it… I keep going at it and never give up.
sometimes I’m even surprised at my own willpower.
(and shamelessness)
but dammit, I want it, I have to get it.
I’m not privileged like some others and I ain’t got connections to get me where I want or what I want.
no one’s helping me.
not from an influential family.
where I am right now has been fought for, hard.
on my own.
sweat.
blood.
tears.
sleepless nights.
stress.
anxiety.
everything on my own.
sometimes I don’t think anyone understands the weight I feel on my shoulders.
because I don’t say it.
I don’t like to talk about it.
I just handle it myself.
but really, no one knows.
and no one has to know.
since it’s not like it’s something that anyone can understand, regardless of how much explaining I do.
it’s just…
ALL ME.
it always has been and always will be.
just me.
I just have to stay strong and push on.
I know I can do it.
I will get there.
I WILL GET THERE!!!!!!!
“Sometimes, I feel like I might die if I don’t dance.”
—VTay
What Dreams Are Made Of (Saxophone, Instrumental)
kinda frustrated not being able to find the full version of this track… it’s the remixed instrumental version of What Dreams Are Made Of that has saxophones…
can anyone help???
“Quiet people have the loudest minds.”
—Stephen Hawking
Where you bought your gold nails? *-*
got it at a manicure place! =D I’ve bought similar (less shiny) versions of the sticker from Sephora… but the texture and quality ain’t the same, although it’s still fine to do it yourself and wear it for fun!
“As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.”
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the moment when words are just overflowing and have nowhere to go, and they just get channelled to my fingertips and get typed as an email, only to be saved as a draft because those words don't belong anywhere just yet.
… I should sleep. goodnight.
